Saturday, June 10, 2006
today's my first day outta attachment... and i feel free... only physically...
there's a whole lotta homework/studying waiting for me... sigh... gotta feeling that i'm gonna do really really bad for my midyrs... i seriously have no idea how i'm gonna finish all this studying. hmm kinda feeling deprived of band lol. yep so a sure-fire way to screw up midyrs wd be to go to the bandrm everyday next week, slack and stone there without studying at home... yep that would leave me one week to study... hope i don't do that though... lol... haiz... dunno what i'm gonna do... mental stress...
hmm don't think i'm all that sad anymore... kinda strange lar... last night i was 100% alright... lol jus 30 min ago i was thinking abt whether i was alright... and i wasn't really... stupid... anyway... thank you everybody for all ur concern... somehow or rather it seems that i've fallen into so many pits and holes of shit that... i'm starting to able to get myself out in record time... so that's supposed to be good right? the whole "what doesn't kill u makes u stronger"... yep so to the dude who has control over my life... are u gonna put me in shit again and watch me swim? to see just how resilient i am? no thanks... don't think i'd be able to do this again...
anyway... its seems that thinking too much sucks sometimes... yep... heal your wounds by not thinking abt it... so the next time u get shot or ur foot blown off... don't think about it and it won't hurt... lol... anyway... seriously to the dude who has complete control over my life... please please please stop it...
don't read the following coz it's a whole lotta gibberish:
to somebody... i'm not really upset anymore... what a great relief right? u know how much i wish that all of this never happened? anyway... sorta have a gut feeling that it's better like this... and that things will get better... yep... maybe 2 yrs down the road u can come ask me smth... hmm nvm probably not a good idea to mention this here... u can ask me some other time... anyway... since u say nothing's gonna change... i shall take your word for it... see wot happens...
lol... i'm talking a whole loada rubbish... see what happens when u don't do what you're told?
Life just sucks some times. Otherwise life is good. :)~~ posted by me on 1:57 pm
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